it has now been seven months since i graduated from college and for a wide variety of reasons this post college adjustment process has not been the perfect fairy tale i had envisioned. in May tessa and i were excitedly exclaiming our newly created plan to "live the dream" we picked out a darling (but ridiculously expensive and quite overpriced) one bedroom apartment and were all set to move in when i got home from World Changers in August...then Wes happened. he proposed and only days later the wedding date was set for September 22...time for a dream change.
i moved to orange county in September and started my first official full-time job as the receptionist at Toll Brothers: America's Luxury Home Builder. although the position was simple and didn't require much creativity or genuine knowledge, i managed to keep myself busy while making new friends and learning a whole lot about the market impact on business. i moved in with my aunt and uncle (well really they're my cousins, but they're old enough to be my aunt and uncle) almost immediately upon my arrival in the larger LA area and settled in to my upstairs bedroom - let me just say - there is nothing quite like a queen sized bed!! however, i do miss having all my clothes hanging in a closet - i've been living out of a suitcase since may and honestly, it has gotten rather old. current desire in life: FURNITURE of my own in which i can put all my treasured posessions.
only four months after my official start date, i left toll. however, God in His infinite grace and love provided me with an incredible opportunity. i left toll on a friday and the following monday i started working in the business and administration services office at The First Evangelical Free Church of Fullerton. the atmosphere and aroma within the office was completely different than anything i experienced at toll...i was immediately warmed and welcomed by the staff and quickly became a part of the family. although i still have LOTS to learn, i'm realizing daily that i've found a new home.
all this to say that it took me seven months to figure it out - it took me over half a year to determine that the dream i had been dreaming wasn't the dream at all. that in fact who i thought i wanted to be wasn't even close to who God wanted me to become. these months have been a struggle - they've been filled with moments of utter confusion, lonely nights, and tear stained cheeks. however, through all of it i have learned that although life is never quite what i had anticipated, somehow i survive; and usually in the end find that the life part is better than anything the anticipation could possibly have offered.
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